it's amazing how easily im erased...

1st from their hearts,

then from their lives,

and eventally from their memories...

slowly fading away...

what is life?

a string of tears, disappoinments, hurt..

or a string of laughter, smiles, love...

who knows..i guess its just you're way of looking at it..

i miss him..every time we say good-bye it gets harder...

not so sure

Patrick is on a cruise this week..and since Saturday I have talked to him twice for 3 minutes each!! and he doesnt get back till monday..what the hell is up with that? it sucks..i miss him a lot...its like i always miss not being able to see him but now i cant even talk to him and its a different kind of miss...like there is so much i want to tell him and talk to him about. everyday i want to call him then i remember i cant..so i leave him voicemails..and i just cant wait to see him again..and talk to him like i used to. yes its only been 5 days..but they have been the longest 5 days...you go from talking to somebody everyday for 9 months..to not talking to them at all..its hard.

ha i felt i'd been negleting this place so thats why i wrote that whole long rant.

Ashley miss you big booty!! hopefully we can hang out soon... i think your probally the only person i know who still uses xanga..oh and p.s. im glad to here your life is going good!! we should try and get together...i should have my liscense by middle of july so maybe then...

I love him with all my heart!

So this weekend was Patrick's graduation! It was a blast. I just love being with that boy I can't wait until I can be with him everyday!! Last night I got totally wasted and it was a blast!! Screwdrivers+peach pucker+cherry something+99 bannas+99 apple=drunk sam!

and being with him makes me the happiest girl alive! and his family loves me so that makes me even happier!! seeing him happy makes me happy!!!

im in a very good mood today!!